It is my sense of integrity and belief that honor is truth in the moment which drives this writing. It is the secretes, and dishonesty that has held me so strongly to truth and it is the pain I have witnessed of so many persons that has touched my heart to make a difference. No matter how difficult that truth is, it is far less destructive and chaotic, causing far less damage than the choice of falsity I have borne the brunt of so silently in the background. It is the very reason I hold to openness. I once said I would rather make attempt in those authorities and tasks that God has placed with me and fail by effort than not try. Once again I find myself in that place. These are my reasons for these words and I shall not regret them what ever the outcome.
It has not been an easy journey on so many levels; uncovering a birth trick, maintaining truth in the face of great adversity, to bearing the loss of my greatest loves in life but it has never been about personal gain for myself. Knowing I have maintained honor in all moments has been easy when the trust of the Tupuna is with me and Atua upholds me. It is with good cause and no less something the people shall find in turn is theirs. Certainly I should never have reached this far without it and something I intend by being open may end the confusion of those trying to work out who I am and where I fit who have not been made conscious of what is unfolding.
In April 2006 Te Arta called me to Turangawaewae on the succession yet when the time came the decision to over ride the choice of the Tupuna, Atua, even Te Arta in her efforts, saw another placed. I in turn was notified by an elder of the council of elders of this occurrence to which I responded “you have failed the world, the people, and Atua”. The spiritual covenant had been broken. I found it difficult to believe that another such opportunity would arise for me and so making commitment to myself that I would not interfere left Taupo heading for Australia. Elders asked me to stay in New Zealand and continue to walk towards the throne.
From that moment until now I have held to the assurances given to me that the succession intended for me would go forward. I have even discovered Te Puea had made a death-bed vow to put right events of long ago. Elders who surround me and those who have notified me over the years as I describe have never wavered from what they state as inevitable.
While I had events of the future it is very hard to find the strength to believe in what many would say is impossible but I was held by the greater sorrow I knew was to come upon my people.
July 2007 arrived and abdication had come to the fore. I was informed by a member of the council of elders that I was about to be taken forward yet again, like before politics saw things stay as they are. Later this member said to me the kaumatua knew they had given nothing back to me thus lay succession of Mother of the Nations at my feet the following November.
October 2011 almost six months ago now a member of the council of elders notified me that I would be placed along with the reasons why I had been chosen stating I was to view this as a restoration and that the elders were waiting for certain things to come out finally adding the people were quite conscious of this. Having recently relocated in answer to the call of the people and the events of the last few years I was not surprised.
Now as I watch current events unfolding onto the fabric of life I am heartened the tapu manna is to be returned in full for the view has not been a positive one for the people in these last years. The role as it stands is denigrated to local territory and one of ceremonial purpose and while I can not condone the decisions, methods, and ways that has brought this about I will say this; person/s are caught in this web that has seen many victims and would remind the people of this.
It is this raruraru and kaka that has been the under current of my life and one for which I shall personally say I walked to resolve for the many, a great capacity to love is my foundation, even when I have not received this back in kind. A great intent to see truth lit and a great commitment to the people has held me fast, thus here we are and for the third time a simple choice now between full restoration that will see the covenant restored and the vision placed or the continuance of the down ward spiral now in progression is on the line.
While I have walked many years to arrive I think it would be in rather poor taste to view me as the understudy waiting in the wings. It is my view to cause affront to myself, the tupuna and Atua a third time as not an option worthy of consideration. Now more than ever I realise that in 2003 at Te Miringa Tekakara where I received the spiritual blessing from the Tupuna and Atua in the form of succession to the throne an event witnessed by elders it was an occurrence that has held the Tapu Manna safe for the people and the future. Thus I share a few of the real events which has seen validation of what I have lived and of what I write.
This was not the original moment that set my footsteps upon the path of such a succession. Like any person who can look back I have had my share of hindsight such as the childhood family stories of royalty and thrones which turned relevant in adulthood. We all have to grow up and so I have, in doing so I am very serious in my commitments understanding life events as preparation for the future. I continue to protect this along with the people as I wait for those who have spoken of this restoration to action it for the higher good of all.
Lastly, someone once close to me said to me “you belong to the world, I believe in what you’re doing don’t let anyone stop you not even me” to her I say I have kept my promise.
In God I trust. God bless my people